I miss being the only person that could control me. I miss having everything under control, and knowing I could handle anything life threw @ me. Ever since things have gone to shit with you, I havnt been myself. I cant even be myself around you anymore. It hurts realizing thay the one thing you thought would hold you together and keep you strong, is actually killing you slowly and doesnt care enough to keep you from leaving; which is typically the reason you stay with them, because you know they domt want you. The moral to situations like these are always the same, you just have to know that the only thing youll ever truely need in the beautiful world is yourself. im learning trust is never something you can give away to anyone, you can only ever trust you. Its time to stop trying to please other people and focus on myself for once. I need to trust myself again or nothing I do in life is going to feel satisfying anymore.